colin murray.

so i'm the middle or rather still close to the beginning, of doing some english literature revision for my AS exams coming up soon. i'm trying to look over poetry by Liz Lochhead and Carol Ann Duffy and even though i quite like doing poetry work i cannot motivate myself for the life of me. honestly, this week i've done barely any work just cause i'm so exhausted. it's not very cool and i'm not appreciating my body right now for being so sluggish.

so i just put on last night's radio ulster show of colin murray's. i was huge fan of colin murray when he did nights at radio one. i listened every night without fail for about two and a half years; even if i had people over, 10pm was colin time, they just had to put up with it.
for those who are not familiar with murray, he's a radio dj hailing from northern ireland: where i'm from!
now, i'm not really a fan of radio ulster, in fact, i wouldn't dream of tuning in. (i actually don't listen to much UK based radio. i mainly listen to american radio streamed online!) but i will tune in for colin. i don't listen as regularly as i did with his old show but what can you do. i'm listening now and it's making me very happy. about four songs in: the flaming lips. good work colin. it's helping me get on with revision so once i post this i'm getting stuck in. happy saturday blogger, hope this weekend is treating you well. and if you get the chance maybe you should check out colin if you haven't already.

[i wanted to put a proper old photo of when i met colin murray when i was about 14 and had a horrible haircut but unfortunately i can't locate it on this computer. maybe another day!]

'i'll be around when all this fucking fashion brings you down' ..maybe not.

say anything remind me of two years ago. they also remind me of lots post '09 but it's mainly then. it doesn't make sense to why i'm posting this just know that it was what it was and it is how it is and it sucks. but it's okay to sometimes remind yourself of the easter of '09.

just don't watch i heart huckabees on easter monday. maybe that's it. 

future prospects.

so today, my last day of term before the easter holidays was really quite productive. i didn't neccessarily do any work in school, infact all i did was watch dvds in my classes, but afterwards i went to town with my friends for lunch and ended up one step further in finding out what i want to do at uni! (if you knew my completely scattered career ideas, you'd pat me on the back for actually taking action in sorting something out.) i've finally started to feel motivated and excited for leaving school and moving on to the next level.

for a while there, it was all a bit blurred about what exactly i wanted to do, and if i'm honest, it's still pretty blurred but i feel like there's finally some movement happening and things are getting in motion. this honestly excites  me a lot more than many other things in my life. it gives me something, other than good A-Level results, to strive for.

i talked to this woman, margaret, in terms of maybe what i wanted to do. she gave me some websites to look at and ways for me to think about narrowing my options down from what i told her: 'so, i want to work with people and i really like english'. but i've had a look at one of the websites and i think i may have found an area i want to work in. i'm not too sure, but i'm so pumped to do more research on it and get a good idea of what i want to do. so far a lot of arrows point to YES but it's extremely early days. i'm just happy i have ideas. ideas are great.

i'm actually motivated for the next two weeks. to catch up on sleep, talk to margaret a bit more and finally tackle revision. i have a good feeling about it; i hope it turns out as planned. it's about time something did.

'go do. throw seeds to sprout, make your own break: let them grow. we should always know that we can do anything'.

jónsi knows his biz.

FM belfast.

we were lying down in front of our house in the summer time. i wish i had a house in the caribbean, and we could go there: par avion.



par avion, or really, any song by FM belfast, get me excited for the summer time. the moment the sun peeps its head out from the clouds, a rare occassion in N. Ireland, the FM belfast goes on.


now it's not quite the caribbean or anywhere exotic, but i'd happily settle for bangor beach this july.

growing pains.

i just got home from a family dinner in celebration of my granda's 65th birthday. it was probably the most chaotic experience ever. (the fact that i've just penned a family dinner as my most chaotic experience ever is not only pathetic but completely untrue! what an exaggeration.) it's as if my family have to constantly be on the go. they always have to be in on what everyone else is doing. which is fine, because we're family, but the curiousity about everyone's business and what they're doing at the bottom of the table drives me crazy. for most of it i sat there dazed, in my own world. not because i don't want to be assosiated or involved with my family: it just required far too much effort.


as this school year progresses, my levels of enthusiasm and energy have just plummeted, but i reckon everyone's does. still, amongst this grogginess (is that a word?) i have an itching in my skin to see bigger and better things which in a sense is enthusiasm and vitality.


it's not that i'm overly ambitious or one of those teens who just has to get out of the city or town they're from for university otherwise they'll just die. i've grown to love the fact that belfast is the place i was born and raised and it holds so much to me; it's just time i started seeing other things. my favourite thing to do in the car - when i'm with my parents so i don't have to make much effort for conversation -  is to sit in the backseat and try and see as many people as i can and try and think of what they're like, or live like. it sounds kind of stupid but it truly intrigues me. i think now, or at least in a year or so when i'm done school, is the time for me to drive around watching people's lives go by in somewhere other than belfast.


manchester sounds refreshing..

this is new.

so, i've planned on making one of these like, a million times before. i make vlogs on youtube, and i'm an avid tweeter but i think i really needed somwhere to be able to write stuff down where no one else would really read it. obviously, i'm posting this online so it's not private: i have grasped that concept. but in all honestly, who would want to read some 17 year old's amateur writings.


i'm in the middle of my A Levels right now, and i'm not gonna lie, they're easily the worst thing ever. by calling this year an absolute nightmare would be an understatement but i'm very nearly done and in like two months i will have finished my AS's which will be the greatest thing ever. i cannot wait.


i think now's a good time to have something for me to do inbetween working and things. everyone keeps telling me that i'm supposed to make time for myself because otherwise i'll burn out; my 'me' time is consisted of pressing the refresh button on facebook and twitter. yesterday i made myself a dailybooth but effectively all i'll be doing there is refreshing as well. hopefully blogger will provide a much more productive outlet.


but hey, we'll see how it goes.